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Kerrie

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16 yrs. old
 Parkview HS
team-7@charter.net

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Interests:
God, cheerleading, art,  Switchfoot, friends, purses, youth group,  Lifehouse, softball
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Friends:
Scott, Courtney, Jess, Tiff, Kell, Tyler, Brit, Amanda, Heather S.
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Alcohol & Partying
Cutting
Swearing
Smoking
Drugs
Depression
Loneliness
Friends
Parents
*Girls Only*
God
Happiness
My Secret Box
Purpose
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God
Posted
June.29

Iíve believed in God for as long as I can remember. My friend Brit thinks we created God in our own image, and I guess thereís some truth in that, but beyond the gods we imaginatively create to serve us is a real God (notice the capital G) who created us in his image.

Iím not here to put down anyone elseís beliefs, and I hope you wonít put down mine, but Iím a Christian, and Iím not ashamed of it. What I am ashamed of is how Iíve messed up, especially this past year. I know Iím forgiven, but I also know I hurt my parents and let down my friends. I was a very bad example of what a Christian is supposed to be.

You can read about the stuff I was into in my other posts, so I wonít repeat myself too much here. But even when I was doing drugs and binge drinking and cutting myself, deep inside I knew there was a right road for my life and also a wrong road, and Iíd taken a wrong turn and was lost.

Being lost was a bad experience, but now itís actually a good experience, Ďcuz now I understand people who are lost and kinda know it. Because that was me.

When I was lost I cried every night, and I asked God to help me, but I kept doing the same stuff the next day. Eventually God did help me, but I needed to hit the bottom and realize the binge drinking and drugs and cutting were never going to make me happy. I realized I had some good friends and family and a great youth group, so there was no need to be mad at my birth mother for not being a very good mother.

Yeah, Iíd learned all the Bible stories in Sunday school and youth group, but the thing I realize now is how Godís grace works. The Bible says ďwe all sin in many ways.Ē
* That is so true! And sin separates us from being close with God. God loves us and wants to fix it, but we have to ask him. This is what John 3:16 is really all about.
* James 3:2, and something similar in Romans 3:23

Grace means we donít really deserve Godís love, but he loves us anyway, and saves us if we ask in Jesusí name, and will invite us into his heaven someday. Personally, I canít wait! But for now, he gives us the strength to stand up to temptation, like drugs or drinking to be popular, and do whatís right.

He also gives our lives purpose. I know he has a purpose picked out specifically for me, even though I donít know what it is yet. Until then, I guess my purpose is to help my friends know they donít have to make the same mistakes I made, or get pregnant like one of my friends on the squad did.

I know some people might think Iíll go back on drugs again or do something else stupid. Brit said the exact same thing. And some people might think God is my new drug. All I can say is Iíve matured a lot this year, and even though I might make some more mistakes in my life, God will forgive me and help me through it by his grace.

As I said, Iíve always believed in God, so heís not my new drug. Heís my old friend, and now weíre together again.

So anyway, what do you think?


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