Iím very happy now. As happy as when I was a child. Eight months ago I was very unhappy. It was the worst time in my life. But I understand why now.
Life is hard. Sometimes it just plain sucks. Our Constitution gives us the right to pursue happiness, but it doesnít guarantee happiness. The Bible doesnít promise us happiness either Ė at least not in this life.
I think happiness is something to be appreciated when you have it because itís so elusive. Things donít bring happiness. Most people know that, but they try collecting the hottest stuff anyway. Clothes, tech, music, and so on. Money is great when you really need something, but most of the things it buys donít make you happy in the long run.
Having friends, especially if theyíre real friends, is certainly better than having no friends. But you canít count on other people for your happiness. Same with family, even a church and youth group.
When all is said and done, sometimes itís just you and God. Sometimes everyone else is willing to let you fall through the cracks, Ďcuz theyíre so busy with their own lives. Weíre all so very selfish, myself included. Itís a wonder anything truly good ever happens. I think love (unselfish love, I mean, like helping someone without getting anything in return) is a minor miracle. But expecting a lot of attention from others is like begging for disappointment. Itís really lame.
So seeking happiness sucks. If Iím happy, Iíll thank God for it and enjoy it while it lasts. I think having a purpose is more fulfilling. Sometimes having a purpose leads to happiness, and sometimes it can lead to frustration, but at least it keeps you motivated and reminds you of who you are and why youíre here.
Having fun and being happy have very little in common. When I was partying and using drugs, I was having fun. But I wasnít happy. When Iím alone in my room praying or thinking about stuff, or when Iím helping someone, Iím not having fun, but Iím usually happy.
For me, ultimate happiness means having peace with God because I know Jesus died for my sins and I can talk with God anytime. It also means he has a purpose for my life and a home in heaven waiting for me. And I know no matter what happens, God and I will get through it somehow.