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"Parkview, Parkview, we cheer you!"



16 yrs. old
 Parkview HS

God, cheerleading, art,  Switchfoot, friends, purses, youth group,  Lifehouse, softball
Scott, Courtney, Jess, Tiff, Kell, Tyler, Brit, Amanda, Heather S.
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Posted September.4

Jackie my step-mom recently gave me a new Bible. I like my regular one, but this one is really interesting too. Itís called The Message. Itís written in easy to understand modern English. I know it will never replace a more traditional translation, and one of my friends at church said he thought it wasnít the word of God at all, but it helped me understand some scriptures that didnít make sense before. Also sometimes itís more interesting to read, especially when Iím bored and need a change.
Anyway, one passage I liked was Ephesians 1:11.

ďItís in Christ that we find out who we are and what we are living for. Long before we first heard of Christ and got our hopes up, he had his eye on us, had designs on us for glorious living, part of the overall purpose he is working out in everything and everyone.Ē

I like it because it says that even when I wasnít interested in God, he had his eye on me, and had a plan for my life. Even if my mother doesnít want me, God wants me. Iím no accident to him.

So here I am at the start of my senior year. Last year was a disaster, well the first half anyway. And despite a couple slips and my ongoing battle with swearing and my feelings about my mother, things are looking up.

I went to Mexico on a missions trip after school was over in June. I got sick and hurled the second night, but other than that it went well. We helped build a clinic and did a childrenís VBS there. I made some cool new friends.
I donít know his plan for my life, but I think I know his plan for this year. First, to be strong and resist temptation, especially when my mother calls and says something to set me off. Second, help others at my school and youth group struggling with some of the same things as me. I think one of the girls on the squad has an eating disorder. (I canít say who, in case someone reads this.) I never had that problem, although Brittany once told everyone she thought I was anorexic. She said ďAnyone that skinny Ė itís just not normal.Ē Whatever!

So although I never had an eating disorder, I did cut, which is also a compulsive behavior, so I think I understand something about it. So Iím gonna try and become friends with her, and maybe sheíll open up if she wants to talk.

So anyway, Godís purpose is now my purpose. Whatever he wants, thatís the deal. By now everyone must know I was messed up, but now Iím back on track, and Iím not all preachy or judgmental about it. So maybe theyíll want to talk with me.

The Bible says, ďDonít live carelessly, unthinkingly. Make sure you understand what the Master wants.Ē (Ephesians 5:17, from The Message)

I only want to do what he wants, and this is affecting which colleges Iím considering. Iím probably best at a Christian college, Ďcuz I donít want to get sucked back into the party scene. But thatís just me. I know I can get into trouble at a Christian college too. Of course, I might have more opportunities to make a difference at a secular university. Either way, I definitely want to get involved with the campus Christian fellowship. Whatever happens, I want it to be what he wants.
My GPA is still really good. I petitioned to do tons of extra work over the holidays to raise my grades to Bís and one C the semester I totally slacked. Then last semester I was like straight Aís Ė my father was so happy. I mean, last November my report card was so bad even East Nowhere Community College would have turned me down.

But grades arenít the most important thing. (Try telling that to my father!) Or which college I go to. Or whether I'm dating or not. The most important things are spiritual, like God, love, faith, and heaven. This is where my main focus needs to be.

ďThe things we see now are here today, gone tomorrow. But the things we canít see now will last forever.Ē (2 Corinthians 4:18, from The Message)